Freitag, 27. März 2009

Let The Sun Shine

I've been feeling a little down the last couple of weeks, but today I was standing in the kitchen, drinking coffee and looking out, and suddenly I felt the few rays of sunshine outside reflect the rays of hope I've been hoping to see for the past couple of days.

The thing about me feeling bad is that I always have to remind myself of just how bad it can get - which is easy - but also how good it can be - which is harder, because if you're sad, feeling happy is such a surreal thing to think of.

So after - stupidly - hoping that shadow in my head would leave on its own for a couple of days, I kind of got out of my own body yesterday, looked at the situation, and just thought: "So what? Are you gonna keep analysing that bad feeling or are you going to do something about it?".
Then I remind myself that giving up - well, giving in - is not really an option and that helps immensely.

Another huge step towards feeling better is acceptance. I've really accepted now that this feeling I sometimes get is something I have to live with, maybe for the rest of my life, but I also realized that that's okay, because I'm stronger than my own mind.

So I'll go out into the world and feel the positivity about everything good that happens to me, and I'll stop thinking in worst case scenarios.

Always remember: Your pain can only hurt you as long as you don't say: stop. This is mine. My decision and actions are what count. And I'm going to win.